everything is 3D blasphemy.

i’m listening to: golddigger – kanye west feat. jamie fox
i’m feeling: perplexed.

i think i waited long enough. not even a courtesy email since the beginning of this month. my god. are you for real? seriously what are you trying to prove? it’s one email. one reply. seriously. 5 min. even if it is to say you don’t wanna return me the money, i don’t deserve the money, you don’t remember what money, you are strapped for cash, you are working for the president, you are on the freaking moon. which is it??

i’m just so disappointed. i thought you were better than that. you can keep it. whatever. i’m done. you’re just the weirdest when it comes to money. the thing is, it’s not even supposed to be like that!! what the hell! just so you know there is a fine that is rolling and increasing dramatically in your name. it just arrived. whatever. if it inconveniences my housemates i’ll just let them do whatever they want.

seriously? seriously!

i’m listening to: don’t speak – no doubt
i’m feeling: 5 by 5.

you never really know how much you love no doubt until you realise that hay, you know every word to their songs! happy sighh.

i’m submitting my essays tmr. my final essays. no more. zilch. nothing. end. finito. it feels……. i feel happy. but what i am gonna do next frightens me.

just watched this cartoon called space chimps. it was surprisingly very entertaining.

titan: are you wearing aluminum?

ham: yes.

titan: are you in a rocket?

ham: yes.

titan: are you in outer space?

ham: yes.

titan: are you david bowie?

ham: no.

titan: THEN you are an astronaut!

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA. fantastic.

kay bye.

i’m listening to: i’m on a boat – the lonely island
i’m feeling: relaxed

2 more days. and it’s all over. uni life as i know it will be over.

hahaha the cat is looking at me like “what the hell are you listening to girl!?”

ah well. it’s almost 3pm. and i have huge plans to clean up all my essays by tonight. let’s see if that’s gonna happen. have date to watch date movie () in the living room at 915pm. i have 2 hours. RUSH!!!

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well, let’s just say i didn’t finish the essays. but i did clean up the one that needed MAJOR cleaning up. and i’m happy. 2 more to clean tmr. and i am DONE. imagine that!

think we’ll be going to queen vic market tmr for some portuguese festival thingy. -shrugs-. maybe i can get my wasabi macadamia nuts then. OR a dozen coffin bay oysters just for myself. =p

i’m watching: i’m on a boat – the lonely island feat. t-pain
i’m feeling: mutinous!

awesome shit that song. you guys should check out jizz in my pants too. big big laughs.

so it’s 0136am. i just watched 2 episodes of grey’s. it was so bittersweet. and i swear tangy was right abt to burst into tears. me? nah i was too conscious of dino beside me. she would have surely given me the “wth i can’t believe it” look. hahahaha. but it was SAD. =(

so i’ve ALMOST completed all my assays. lotsss of cleaning up to do. i guess that’s what the weekend’s for huh?

yeah it’s that time of day. where i get very hungry, refuse to eat, and try to sleep it off.

and my mind drifts off to…

p/s. i still feel mutinous.

i’m listening to: time after time – quietdrive
i’m feeling: slightly stoned.

when do you exist? when do you count? do you exist because here you are breathing and living, or when people acknowledge that you are actually there? when do you matter? when you are not around, how are you missed? who could replace you, or WILL replace you when you disappear?

what does it effing take?

i’m listening to: forgotten – linkin park
i’m feeling: omfg sian.

yep. i have at least another 3000 words to churn out in total and here i am. blogging. yep. just say it. i deserve it.

yes. i was a tad more ambitious this semester. i set myself high expectations. my deadline reads: complete 3 essays by sunday. which was 3 days ago. however, i have only completed 1 and 2 more are done halfway. i’m thinking, if i actually do sit down and not procrastinate my life away, what takes 10 hours to do can actually be completed in 2. i kid you not. i’m so disgusted with myself. urgh.

have no fear. i have another week to the real deadline. by which if i don’t complete them i should literally be dead. we shall see.

i’m listening to linkin park now. and i forgot how much i love them. how much i loved their hybrid theory and meteora. why can’t they do such great music again??? come on guys.. one last time i need y’all to roar. LP just brings back such great memories. of JC, of LP, of frontrow concerts and water being splashed all over me. of skipping, and of knowing all the words to their songs.

i am thinking, just toying with the idea of not blogging anymore. but i know i will again eventually. but i’m just sick of random people reading my blog (no not you guys. you guys i love). you know what i mean? i get like 75-100 hits everyday. who are these people? anyone knows how to lock the blog up?

the cousin is visiting next week. i can’t wait. it’ll be fun. i know it. and a few days after she leaves, someone comes home. =) and then after that, it’s dino’s bday. and parties in between all those things. life should be so good. =) then off to sydney!

okay. back to omfg sian mood. bye.

i’m listening to: those eyes – thirsty merc
i’m feeling: nice.

i was watching SATC season 6 and carrie said something. “i deleted Big.”

it didn’t seem like anything until i got a msg and my phone told me that my inbox was 95% full. and i was like…what… again???

so i went thru my phone. yes. amidst all the assays, all the work i have to do. all the readings, i decided to go thru my phone and see what is taking up all that effing space!!!

my god. if you only knew how many msges of the exbf i have in my phone. i’m a text msg hoarder!! anyway. i started deleting them one by one. and i was feeling pretty damn good abt myself when i said fuck it. i’m gonna mass delete them. so goodbye msges. and hello emptier inbox.

coincidentally, it’s his bday today. so happy birthday. i know we’re happier and better off. =)

i deleted BIG.